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EA can be quite crippling as it causes the person to feel acutely self-conscious and leads to a persistent and overwhelming fear of interaction. And that makes any attention from other people feel potentially threatening so that the child feels ‘exposed’ each time someone looks at him, talks to him or even compliments him.Autism and Exposure Anxiety. Don’t look at me! – Autism Daily Newscast
Exposure Anxiety: a definition
Exposure Anxiety is the internal parent watching its vulnerable and exposed baby being stolen by the world outside or given away by ‘the self’; being robbed of control by what are felt as ‘outside forces’. Exposure Anxiety is a self-parenting survival mechanism, an intense often tic-like involuntary self-protection mechanism that jumps in to defend against sensed ‘invasion’. When it becomes chronicChronic illness is a pretty big umbrella, and it would be impossible to list them all. Some of them are triggered by an injury like a car accident, or something... More, it is self-perpetuating – like a boulder hurtling down a hill, gaining momentum. Chronic, uncontrolled, acute Exposure Anxiety is about addiction If addiction is like misguided love, then compassion is a far better approach than punishment.Can You Get Over an Addiction? - The New York Times In her book Unbroken Brain,... More to your own adrenaline. We all experience stress and some of us are more driven, more passionate, more fixated and intense, more independent, more controlling, more dominant or passive, more jumpy or aloof, naturally. In most cases where Exposure Anxiety goes hand in hand with the metabolic, digestive and immune system disorders that co-occur in the largest percentage of people on the autisticAutistic ways of being are human neurological variants that can not be understood without the social model of disability.If you are wondering whether you are Autistic, spend time amongst Autistic people, online and offline. If... More spectrum. The chronic stress of Exposure Anxiety exacerbates physiological problems which then affect information processing as well as throw neurotransmitter balance into a state of chaos, forming a self-perpetuating loop. The person with Exposure Anxiety who lives and works with those who do not understand the condition are bound to find the self-in-relation-to-other, directly-confrontational approach of the environment seems to make Exposure Anxiety worse.Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
Exposure Anxiety has two faces and is the heaven and the hell, the lure of sanctuary and the suffocation of the prison.
Exposure Anxiety is a mechanism that craves the extreme and retaliates against any sense of impending invasion. It is like taking a feeling of severe shyness and multiplying it by fifty, yet its presentation is extremely confusing to onlookers. People with severe Exposure Anxiety can be frozen, or they can be manic and high. They can be prone to despair and depression, driven and creative, or unable to connect. They can be obsessive or fiercely indifferent, compulsively helpful or aloof. They can be passive or controlling; bombastic or phobic; deeply empathic or compulsively violent; open and honest or secretive and intensely private. Exposure Anxiety is likely one of a range of conditions relating to what has been coined ‘Reward Deficiency Syndrome’, essentially relating to reward feedback and impulse control mechanisms in the brain.
Exposure Anxiety makes it difficult to dare ‘expressive volume’ in a directly-confrontational (self-in-relation-to-other) world
If I could draw you a picture of acute chronic Exposure Anxiety, I’d draw you a rainbow unseen within heavy stone walls. There’d be places in the stone where the cement had crumbled, been chipped away and some of the colour had come streaming out like a ray of light into the world. I’d draw you a picture of someone inside a prison, an invisible prison with replica selves on the outside, each a contortion, a distortion of the one you can’t see who can’t get out. I’d draw you a picture of someone avoidant with a social person waiting inside for the keys and a way out. I’d show you the compulsive, with a face manic in the midst of a diversion to distract you, to control you, from getting in. I’d draw you a face with a plastic smile, perfect movements, a learned handshake and a gut full of despair and loneliness in a world that applauds the ‘appear’ at the expense of ‘self’; suicide without a corpse.Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
I was fine chattering away to myself, singing or making sound patterns, in order to close out the impact of the invasiveness of others, and being told to shut up only heightened the desire to surround myself with the sound of my own voice. If I was expected to reply, however, this was the complete antithesis. Hearing myself speak in my own voice in acknowledged connection to the world was excruciatingly personal and felt like fingernails down a blackboard.Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
It wasn’t that the volume was too loud so much as that in the grip of an adrenaline rush everything was sensorily too much. The intense ‘pain’ was that the personal, individual, me-ness in it was unbearable. I was allergic to the experience of my own existence and the experience of hearing my own voice speaking from connected expression as me could, at times, be far worse than the terrible feeling you get hearing your own voice on an audio tape or answerphone.Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
I was a social kid: social with the dirt, the trees, the grass, the birds in the aviary, the rolls of carpet at the hardware store, the tinkling of pins, the books of wallpaper samples and the smell and lickable surface of patent leather. I felt the world deeply and passionately. I was cheerful in my own world and I had a fascination with anything that was not directly-confrontational and which would allow me to ‘simply be’. People too often failed the criteria. They were looking for concepts such as ‘together’, ‘with’ and ‘us’. They were not worlds unto themselves within the world, as I was. They needed to be taken account of, to interact in a directly-confrontational way that they called ‘normality’.Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
Carers want to feel they are making a differenceOur friends and allies at Randimals have a saying, What makes us different, makes all the difference in the world.Randimals We agree. Randimals are made up of two different animals... More. They are told that positive reinforcement will help make that difference. But with Exposure Anxiety, the more you expect, want or promote something, the more the self-protection response says, ‘Don’t do that again, that triggers the external world into invasive attempts to connect’. You know when praise works because it really does work. You know when it doesn’t when your job as carer becomes harder and harder. So what can you do if your ability to praise or give attention makes you feel more and more impotent to help?Exposure Anxiety – The Invisible Cage
Jasper was afraid to show his own voice because the self-exposure of hearing it in his own ears resulted in him having feelings. Even daring to think about saying or doing something with intention from his own interest or want would result in such an intense feeling of exposure and vulnerability that he often could not even dare think about expressing himself.An Inside Out Approach: An Innovative Look at the ‘Mechanics’ of ‘Autism’ and its Developmental ‘Cousins’
Exposure anxiety is something all people have at some level if pushed far enough. In some people, it takes a lot for this instinctual response to fire. In others it is triggered much too easily, making conscious awarenessAcceptance means training mental health service providers to look at autism and other disabilities as a part of a person's identity, rather than a problem that needs to be fixed. Acceptance... More experienced as painful regardless of the emotion attached to it. The conditions of agoraphobia, exam anxiety, fear of public speaking, ‘intense shyness’ and compulsive hypersensitivity found in ‘autism’ is this state at its worst and for some, the only answer may be to indulge almost constantly in attempts to hypnotise oneself out of conscious awareness.
Exposure anxiety is not intentional and nor are its often reactive, avoidant or defensive and distancing results. It is an uncomfortable state for everyone, especially the person with this condition. It can make life itself feel like an infliction, a place of pins.
The result of exposure anxiety is an intense rawness that is easily mistaken for ‘pain’ and because the expression and interaction of others are often the cause of its provocation, intentionally or unintentionally, the result is the same; they cause the pain.
Exposure anxiety is a suffocating and entrapping experience. If one can struggle for awareness with this condition, one is generally stuck with that awareness for a very very long time before any control over the ability to fight for its expression develops to a level where one can control the intense impulse to divert, avoid and deny expression enough to get expression through in any consistent and real way. This, more than anything else, forces intense self-awareness, if only at the preconscious, though triggerable, level.An Inside Out Approach: An Innovative Look at the ‘Mechanics’ of ‘Autism’ and its Developmental ‘Cousins’
Sometimes the world may be found to have too much impact, to be too directly confrontational. Watch the avoidance behaviours of some children dren around the age of three when approached or gazed at too directly or too personally before you have made his or her acquaintance and you may see a sort of ‘exposure anxiety’ or ‘emotional hypersensitivity’.Autism and Sensing: The Unlost Instinct
Emotional hypersensitivity or exposure anxiety can be a natural stage for most children and the support of their environment together with their own repertoire of deflective and avoidance strategies probably protects them in getting through this and no long-term harm is done to their development. Sometimes, a child going through this may not have the resources to cope. If the capacity to perceive or interpret is impaired, then even in a supportive environment, reassuring tones of voice, words, gestures or facial expressions may not be able to be consistently or cohesively interpreted with meaning. Expression may convey nothing, or worse, be sensed as clashing with the actual feeling of tension, annoyance or anxiety that is sensed as happening. Here the support that environment offers may be intangible, tangible, incomprehensible, imperceivable, confusing and even disturbing. The result may be that as conscious awareness dawns, such a child may be left too rawly exposed and, in effect, be unable to feel supported no matter how present that displayed support may be.Autism and Sensing: The Unlost Instinct
Bet you think that you're better off dead Someone told you it's all in your head Too afraid of being inconsistent Wanna leave the house but you think you'll miss it In the comfort of your home You're a star but no one knows Too afraid of being optimistic You could have it all but you just won't risk it I don't wanna show up I don't wanna show up I don't wanna show up for this I don't wanna give up I don't wanna give up I don't wanna give up on this I was never enough You were never enough We were never enough for this I will never live up I will never live up I will never live up to this Never saw it coming and I'm guessing it was luck It was just as easy as showing up --Show Up by Sundressed
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